Learning to control a habit

We all have annoying habits we can’t break. They stick around, and while they may be positive or negative, they’re personal identifiers. It’s possible to break a habit, but it takes lots of discipline. You have to be patient and expect a relapse. Most of the time we come to terms with the fact that this habit is a part of who we are for a reason: it highlights some aspect of our personality. I’ve recently noticed a habit of my own: saying “I love you” too much.

“When I tell you I love you, I don’t say it out of habit or to make conversation. I say it to remind you that you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.” 

Extroverts have trouble concealing their emotions, and I’m no exception. It’s easy to look at my face and know what’s on my mind. When I’m happy, the world knows it and when I’m upset, the world knows it. However, this bad habit of blurting “I love you” needs to stop. To some, this isn’t a huge deal because expressing feelings is healthy. Nonetheless, all good things – love included – should be saved for special moments. If you say it too much then the meaning will be lost. Unfortunately, my brain and mouth are not on the same page. I can’t keep those three words from escaping my lips, and I hate it. This habit hasn’t resurfaced in a while because I haven’t been in a relationship.

But now I am and whenever I say it – which seems like every five minutes – he’s nice about it. He doesn’t say it nearly as often as I do, so when he does my heart races. That’s how it should be because of how powerful these words are. People tell me overusing this phrase isn’t classified as a bad habit because it’s tied to who I am: an outgoing, loving person. However, it needs to be a controlled habit. If my brain and mouth can come to an agreement on to say it so it’s more special, that’d be perfect.

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