When you’re having a bad week, sometimes the smallest thing can turn it all around. The last six days have been tough – I’ve been angry, alone, scared, depressed, weak and tired. I was relieved when Sunday rolled around and I went to 5 p.m. Mass. I’ve been trying to develop a new habit of not allowing bothersome emotions weigh me down for too long before offering them up to God.
As I touched my forehead with holy water on the way into the sanctuary, I instantly felt a calming sensation. It was like I’d passed through a barrier that separated me from the burden I’d been carrying. Normally I don’t attend Mass solo, but this proved to be the perfect remedy. The perfect hour with minimum distractions, but what really made difference was the music.
Most weekend Masses include a church choir, but Sunday night Masses feature a group of musicians sing contemporary songs and display the lyrics on the projector. These songs are the ones you’d hear on the K-Love radio station. I love standing in my pew without a hymnal and belting the lyrics to my favorite songs. It feels so good to just be with Jesus for an hour and feel all your negativity melt away.
One song mended me after the weeklong struggles. This song was called Heart of Worship. This song reminded me of the time I sang in the church choir when I was in high school – our choir was actually called Heart of Worship. The song’s message is that our lives should be centered on God, not ourselves, and if we stray from him we can return. That message made me exit the church with a more grateful attitude and genuine smile.
“I’m coming back to the heart of worship. And it’s all about you. It’s all about you, Jesus. I’m sorry, Lord, for the thing I’ve made it. When it’s all about you, it’s all about you Jesus.” – Michael W. Smith, Heart of Worship